I'm about to be an Aunt!!!

So....here I am about to be an Aunt and I am a nervous wreck!!! I just finished my conversation with Carisa and of course she's calm and at the same time giddy....and I'm a nervous wreck. Jason sounded pretty together too. I dont know why I am so nervous. Maybe it's because I feel helpless....I feel like there is so much that I want to do but I can't because I'm not there. But....no it's not that, because I know Carisa will be fine....Jason has always and will always take such good care of her....so what is it. I cant really put my finger on it. Maybe it's anxiety more than anything. I think that it's simply that I know Carisa and Jason are about to experience the most amazing thing they will ever feel! Wow....the very moment that you hear and see that little angel take his first breath the surge or emotions just takes over your entire body....mind....and spirit. This is it....that beautiful little being that you created that is you.....your body your mind and your spirit....is now here, it's the most beautiful thing in the world. How long he relied on you to live and now this is his first taste of the world outside. All the new sights and sounds and smells. Think about what Teigan did the second he was born....he just wanted to see what was going on and taste the air.....Taste the air, how simple...how amazing. I think that sometimes we should all take the time to taste the air. Just remember that Carisa, Jason....Jack is going to have all these new sensations all at once and you're there to see and and experience it with him.

I cant wait to be there....to see you guys and to meet my beautiful little (or maybe not so little) nephew. Enjoy your day tomorrow! Try to relax. Actually I think that someone should be telling me to relax....but in anycase.....I love you both so much!

Wow....I'm gonna be an Aunt.....

(O yea and Carisa and Jason are going to be Mommy and Daddy ;) )

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!